Suddenly you just know it’s time to start something new and trust the magic of new beginnings….
A couple of months ago I was dealing with the aftermath of being unsuccessful in landing a new senior role. Visions of closing doors, one after the other. A feeling of being trapped. Doubts about my capabilities and future within the company. It’s fair to say that I wasn’t in a good place.
Why was this setback hitting me so hard?
Because I truly felt that I had a lot to offer in this new organisation that was being formed. It was my ambition to be an integral part of the leadership team helping to shape the future of the company. When you aim high, it is difficult to settle for second best.
I ALWAYS aim high. It’s in my DNA to push myself. It’s why I do the things I do in the way I do them. It’s why I get restless when I am stuck in routine for too long and how I create new possibilities for myself but equally for the people around me, be it my loved-ones, friends or my team and colleagues.
New possibilities…. And then it dawned on me that I needed to use this situation of adversity and flip it on its head. This actually could be a positive thing, it could be the lever I needed to give myself a new beginning!
For the past 2 years I had this dream, desire, to take a career break, step away from it all. I felt tired with work and, at times, frustrated with myself that I couldn’t just sit back, relax and take it easy for a bit. I had done really well in my career but worked really hard for it and along the way I made a lot of sacrifices. I was juggling so many things and felt the weight of responsibility to provide financially for my family.
A shot of adrenaline rushed through my body… I just knew from deep within what was right for me and I decided there and then that I was going to leave the company and take that break that I had been dreaming of.
Turning over a new leaf, the prospect of starting something new, time to recharge the batteries, time to spend with my loved-ones, time to reflect, time to meet new people…oh my god, the rush of positive energy I felt clinched the deal for me!
So here I am, a couple of months later, making the most of my free time. Of course there have been days where I thought “What have I done?”; “Why did I take such a huge risk and leave it all behind?” and I am sure there will be plenty more days like that to come. But I know that it was the only right thing to do to stay true to myself and prepare for my next chapter in life.
My days are still jam-packed yet with amazingly rich and insightful conversations with people I am reconnecting with after a long time as well as with people I am connecting with for the first time. Equally, I feel blessed to be able to spend proper quality time with my family and friends rather than to squeeze them in between 2 conference calls! And the fact that I have built my own website and writing a blog is tapping into my creative side which is great fun and very rewarding.
Bottom-line: I am happy I took that leap of faith and I trust new doors will open to new beginnings.